urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:keinengel Standing Still Standing Still Standing Still 2003-12-24T13:43:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:keinengel:7933 Freeform Freewrite 2003-12-24T13:43:05Z 2003-12-24T13:43:05Z As I say the words<br />I feel as though my chest is empty<br /><br />There<br />In the cold<br />In the dark<br />A wind blows<br />Spinning<br />Rushing<br />Coursing in the tiny space<br />Whistling through my ribs<br /><br />Once<br />I love you<br />Twice<br />I love you<br />And still it's not enough urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:keinengel:3097 Three Kinds of Alone 2003-04-26T12:02:50Z 2003-04-26T12:02:50Z Yoko Kanno - "The Real Folk Blues" Past: Every happy memory I have seems tainted by subsequent painful memories.<br /><br />Present: I trust fewer people right now than at just about any other point in my life<br /><br />Future: Untouchable, unknowable, and all I have to offer me comfort in that realm is vague platitudes.<br /><br />It's been a long time since I've felt this utterly alone. But it doesn't hurt like it used to. It's just cold now.